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I dont know why i have this thing no one reads it besides james, nate and maybe ash. fuck i had enough of this shit. i was one of those ppl that try to make everyone happy before i make myself happy then i got smart and said fuck it, its not worth the stress and the drama and all the bull shit. Im sitting here at work being bored as a mofo nothing to do and the worse thing is im listening to fucking country music. i dont hate all country music but pretty much all the new stuff. *sigh* i think i need to go for a ride tonight on my bike dont know where im gonna go but who cares. Do you ever get one of those days were the world would probably be better without you in it. yea thats how my whole fucking week has been. Everything I do is wrong and nothing can fix it so why even fucking try. ppl at work are bitching about how much time i take off, you know what i think, i think they should mine their only business if there was a problem with the time i take then fucking supervisors should say something not them. Its my fucking time i can do what the fuck i want with it. But people can take a weeks vacation and not say a damn thing. im not bitching about ppl taking a weeks vacation im all for that. another thing that fucking pisses me off is ppl calling in here that fucking want this fixed now and everything is our fucking fault. i hate fucking ppl. *sigh* an now onto relationships..... it would be nice to be in one but i like being singal and i dont know i guess i just dont want to be tied down i like being able to make planes at a drop of a hat. lol can you see me calling up my girlfriend and asking her if i can go to some place and make sure its ok w/ her i just dont see that happening at this point in time. I could also be affraid of getting into a relationship too i dont know o well just one less thing on my mind i guess. well thats all for now

working

this is what i do at work





haha boredom

Work and other thoughts

so yea im here at working being bored as hell. what i really want to do is play ut2004 and just chill for awhile. stress will be the downfall for me. i dont know what it is but i get stressed so damn easy anymore i just want to hit something and say fuck it i dont care anymore. other days im just fucking wondering why the hell did i buy a bike and then i get on it and ride it around and i know why i bought the bike its the feeling that you get when your riding and you think to yourself man i could do this forever all the stress goes away all my worries arent there anymore and the weight on my chest is gone. well i dont know what else to put on this.